IF

Simple word right, could be I guess , but for a 2 letter word it sure packs a punch.

I had a dream my Father said this word to me ( along with a few others which will make more sense as you read along ) after he passed  , probably about a year later or even more, can't remember exactly.
I do remember as a little girl we had an organ, handed down from one of my cousins most likely , along with songbooks.
One of the songs we used to try and master was IF by Bread, how many times my little fingers probably mindlessly played ( and not good at all :) HAHA ) this music and possibly muddled through the words.

Years later after sitting down and really reading them after my dream did I put myself back at that organ in the " living room " while my Dad sat in the " TV room".  Painting a picture for myself , I would like to think he sat in that room and knowing him with eyes closed either whistling along or even singing the words without us knowing it. In my dream perhaps he had the same memory , except this time showing his face to me knowing now the words had come to have their meaning.

Here they are :

If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.

If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away
PACKS A PUNCH right?

When I woke up that day I couldn't wait to find these words, as I sat and read them I cried my eyes out.
I cried because I knew IF he could be in two places at once he'd surely be at my side.
IF he could paint a picture to tell me how much he loved me , it would be a Picasso.
I know that when I am down and feeling sorry for myself , IF I could hear him he would be saying , get over it Baby, you don't have it so bad you got me.
IF he could take me flying around the heavens , he surely would.
I am left to come up with my own meaning and interpretation of my dream I suppose ; but I choose to believe he was saying IF I could be there I would , IF I could still kiss your boo boo's I would, IF I could still tell you to get over it ( and he would have LOL ) , I would.

Well likewise Dad, IF I could I would tell you so many things , I love you being the one I long to say the most.

Still saying what I need to say in 2012

XOXO

Lori